Goodbye 2015

Goodbye 2015

Another year has gone by.

 

I can safely say this year has been a complete and utter rollercoaster for me. So many ups, and so many downs. Loss, grief, change, surprise, heartbreak, reconciliation, celebrations to name a few. I have experienced every single emotion, and I am happy to admit I am really glad this year is almost over. A lot of people use the New Year as a fresh start, and I am definitely one of those people. But 2016 will be a little bit different, and maybe a little bit more selfish, but in the best possible way.

 

2016 is the year of Me.

 

It is the year I put my happiness first.

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And no, it doesn’t mean I’ll forget everyone else’s happiness, or indeed shut out everybody else on my quest for inner contentment, but it means I am going to put a bit more thought into what it is that makes me happy.

Somebody very wise once said to me that I am sensitive to people’s feelings, sometimes a little too sensitive; in that I worry so much about what people think that it stops me doing things, in fear I will be judged. And it’s true. I think a lot of people suffer from this irrational fear of what people will think of them, but people will think what they want, regardless of what I do or say.

I am going to say yes more, and also say no to things which is just as important. I want to travel more, see more of the world, and meet new people. I want to work on how to push my career further, and aim higher than ever before. Yes this will mean leaving my comfort zone, but nothing is worth anything without a little risk.

 

An arrow can only be fired by first being pulled backward; so have faith that if things seem to be falling down, you will soon be fired into something amazing.

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I’ll do a post early on in the New Year with a review of my bucketlist of 2015, and then a brand new one which is looking very exciting 😀

 

But for now, take this as my promise, that 2016 is the year of me. And I am so excited for it.

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Running 10k For Gran

Running 10k For Gran

Hey guys!

This post is a little bit different because it’s not really in keeping with my love for topics such as tea and baking lovely sweet treats but I hope you’ll stick with me!

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After my Gran passed away, I have been dabbling with the idea of raising money for The Stroke Association. My Gran had four strokes during the later years of her life, these massively affected her way of living, and for the last 13 years she was living in a residential home. After her first massive stroke she lost the ability to walk, talk and write as well as losing her independence. She went from living in her own bungalow to living in a home requiring constant care and support. She needed somebody to write her letters and cards for her, which was a huge blow as she loved to write to all of her friends and family. Over the years she recovered somewhat, unfortunately suffering from some additional smaller strokes. This resulted in her living with an underlying fear of ‘when will the next one come?’ And her anxiety meant she didn’t want to leave the home, she only felt safe there. Thankfully, my Gran was always happy, full of joy and smiles, she loved her life and the staff at the residential home adored her just as much as we did. She is a true hero in my eyes.

My memories are so full of wonderful times spent with my Gran, baking, walking in the fields, picking blackberries, eating fish and chips, spending every Friday night of my childhood with her and my sister watching Corrie and Strange But True, making all kinds of yucky mixtures and potions with anything we could find in her cupboards, and pretending we were grownups playing fancy dress in her clothes.

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I want her to be proud of me, and I also want to challenge myself to do something I’ve never done before. So I’ve signed up to run The Bupa London 10k on 30th May 2016, for The Stroke Association.

I’ll be blogging my training, from day one all the way to race day, it’s going to be a long journey but one I am so ready for! So this is my pledge, and for those who know me, you know how hard this will be for me, so please feel free to donate and support this amazing charity, and the thousands of people who are living after a stroke.

I will be posting meal ideas, training plans, gadgets, ideas for running gear you name it, so if there is anything you would be interested to read about let me know J It will be fun to see my progress down the line!

Check out my justgiving page: https://www.justgiving.com/Sophie-Deacon

And my twitter @sophie_d247 for updates!

For now,

Sophie xx

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